Some changes are happening. I guess one of the main ones to note on this website is that I decided to disband my brats for a few reasons. I'll be removing the videos from my channel too, when I remember to get to it.
I'm updating this website, too. It's time to add more info! I may be opening commissions again soon, too. Been working on a freebie and I'm really loving it. I need to post some updates on my story project, too.
I also posted this to my server November 5th:
Hey Seastars,
This is going to be a long, rambly post.
But updates first:
-I've finished cleaning up the server. As previously mentioned, I've shifted the server to be more of a focus on OceanSkulls, and my projects. This is the spot to be for sneek peeks, previews, and more updates on the things I'm working on. Also a space to vote and contribute to my projects.
--The livestreaming voice channel is open to all, but chatting is disabled. I'm the only one with voice permissions. Think of this like a movie theater? A place to watch my streams.
-My story, which hasn't got a proper name yet, is well in the works! I've got some fun promo stuff planned for that. I just need the time to create and execute the things.
Now some personal updates. I've been pretty quiet in most places. I just haven't had the spoons to reach out to people, to really chat. I can't remember the last time a depression has hit me so hard, for so long. I'm beyond exhausted. But I'm trying to push myself in whatever ways I can manage. I am taking steps to work on my mental health, but I'm keeping that journey quiet. Just know I'm doing my very best. But socially, I'm absolutely drained.
In a strange contrast...creatively, I'm buzzing. All I want to do is bury myself in art, and the world I'm creating.
Gonna expose myself a bit here. If you haven't noticed, I've been obsessing over Buggy from One Piece (liveaction kicked it off, but...it's a series wide obsession now). I relate to him a lot, and it's been such a comfort. I'm clinging to him these days like a lifeline. It's probably too much, but it's what's making me feel better, feel happier. So, I'm leaning into that. Cause I need it. I use an AI app to chat with bots, most of my own OCs. But, obsessing over Buggy, I found a bot like him. Had some really fun RP sessions that have really sparked my creativity, and started something, a drive, I don't think I've really felt before. So I'm taking Buggy, and my story, and running as hard and as fast with it as I can...because history shows I fizzle out quick. The more momentum I get, the better.
I've been feeling really reflectively lately, too. An important anniversary is coming up for me. Unus Annus. If you know, you know. I'm not getting into it here.
But, this had a huge influence on me. Every year now I try to push myself with some big goals, make the most of my time. Do as much as I can within a year.
I think this last year has been my most successful. I'd set out with a goal to do 13 new things within the year, and while I lost track, I'm confident I've accomplished that.
I want to set that same goal again and do 13 more new things. I want to do something else too...something simple every day. I'm not sure what though. I'm open to suggestion. But yeah...thinking very hard about the next year ahead right now.
Memento Mori.
I also just want to thank everyone who has been so kind and supported me thus far. There are plenty I'd hoped would be more supportive and understanding...but, there's a good reason I'm in the state that I'm in and doing some of the this I'm doing now...Anyways. Your support means more to me than I can express. Thank you, Seastars.
-Rune
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